noth

Wake up each morning with a 'complete' feeling of emptiness. I wiki'd it.. and found the exact things i felt - "boredom, social alienation and apathy".

I went on to read - "travellers and artists are often intrigued by and attracted to vast empty spaces, such as open deserts, barren wastelands or salt flats, and the open sea"

i can't find a reason to carry on. It not being the first time is a glimmer maybe, but that it keeps recurring hints at something that probably needs checking.